A memory in time with my mother, Laura By Tara Engeran-Schroeder

The blue birds and red birds with their unique melody of tweets and coos - blended with the wood knockers and the loud crows calling across the neighbourhood.

Petals of Light from the various flowers around our home, swirled through the air, as the quiet of the clouds moving high above against a turquoise sky; all orchestrated with the buzzing of the honey bees through the trees.

Love is here, as this is an enchanting memory and part of my heart, my spirit, my soul. We each have this dance of Light within us; our own starry brilliance of sunshine that knows no boundaries and brightens our body as we allow.

There in the garden, among the Magnolia tree, golden pale pink cabbage roses, bright fuchsia azaleas, honeysuckle, daisies, and lavender — my mother introduced my sister and I to the healing light in nature and growing edible flowers.  She said we were like sunflowers bringing smiles of sunshine everywhere we went.

When I was three years old, she showed us how to hold a huge golden sphere of Light in our hands.  She would have us hold this light and feel the warmth it created, as the brilliant essence of sunlight.  We would practice holding it for hours.  We would throw this light back and forth to each other imagining it was a ball, then standing further and further apart from each other.  Day after day and through our jumping and playing we created this lovely magnetic energy.

She showed us that this Light can help to heal us.  We could feel the warmth of the golden light in our hands and put it on our heart with prayers.  Miracles are created.  She explained that God is in all things and in everyone; and this Light is part of God.

Within each of us is the Divine Light.

The spark that begins a new with each breath and truly within that breath,

There we are.

Our Love, passions, thoughts, memories --

We are new again and again.

Our inner beauty of radiance shines and weaves through us as a golden fabric of time, and this elixir sweetens our life.

It is these memories that we hold dear.  It may be from travels and walks through the red wood forest or a gondola ride through a canal in Venice; laughter with a child, a dance in the moonlight. Whatever it may be.

Perhaps your happy memory is from your garden.  Enjoying the small bud of soft pink peony that blooms with delight, so large you can taste its hidden dimensions.  The mint that goes wild with a powerful aroma with the humid summer air.  The great magnolia tree that has a fragrance through the air that seems like pathways of light, as the branches widen higher and wider.

Memories become part of our consciousness.  The Light around our body holds these thoughts, symbols, light, colors and sounds in the various ways we know, feel and believe.   Over time, this becomes part of our physical body.

Research shows us that we are mostly Bodies of Light and water - the nature healing of sound frequencies code through us with our thoughts, and we can create health or dis-ease from the influences around us.

Our thoughts hold an energy signature.  An abstract or physical object holds a certain vibration and frequency.  Our mind reads it all as it moves through our system.  Sound frequencies travel slower than light frequencies; and amazing as the frequencies speed up, the sound moves to light. Light as it speeds up, then becomes part of our consciousness.    Our moods and nervous system are affected by what we bring into our inner viewing, mind thoughts and memories, this we know.

Through my day, I love to imagine the Pillar of Light that moves from the heavens and through us, and seeing it move out in all directions from my body centre.  Creating an inner smile and soft slow breaths of light with colors through me with happy thoughts, prayers, sounds and movements.  It is always different and helps to clear the busy day to create calm.

We are mostly water.

Our brain, nervous system, our blood, cells, skin, organs, muscles, aura shimmer with light.   Being in our happiness, laughter, play, long walks, runs, dancing, enjoying each other and however this magic is with you is a true alchemy of our healing light from within.  True healing begins with feeling this Love through us.

As healers, we are empathic and feel quite easily the environment and people around us.  Keeping our body, mind and spirit healthy and present is key, so that we can bring a clear light to others that is not entangled with anything but our pure Light.   A pure channel.

At school when I was young and attending Catholic school, we were told we could be like Jesus, Mary and the angels; and that we could heal.  I love that message and it has been with me through my life. My grandmother would have me put my hands on her shoulders when I visited because she said I had healing hands.  Those memories that I have through life have become stronger for me and very powerful reminders of the Love that flow through time.

My mother passed when I was seventeen.  It was not an easy time as a young woman moving through life and trying to ‘fit in’ and be in my truth, my light and essence.  I have been extremely fortunate to have been guided by such amazing women in life: grandmothers, aunts, friends, mentors, daughters and teachers through time -- to share their wisdom, love, stories, blessings and nourishing gatherings.

I know I had lost parts of me when my mom crossed over.  I have pieced back together through the art of nature healing, travels and movement that have helped guide me back to me that is always there; blended with a well spring of Faith to know that I am not alone.  We are continuously guided by Spirit, our loved ones, angels – however you want to express it.  It is a magnificent force much greater than we can explain.  Yes, it is God and so it creates such aw and inspiration within me that keeps me on my path of Light.

We each have this compass within our hearts, our intuitive self, higher self.

I believe she was a spiritual healer and teacher in her way.  The time in the garden and learning of the golden light she shared to us has had such profound insight for me; to who my mother was here in her time, on Mother Earth.  As if she knew it would continue to guide me my entire life - a golden thread of Love that brings me back again to this time - for healing myself, my family, and to share with others.

I know she would say that we have everything within us and all we truly need to share our Light; to just open our hearts with smiles and love.  Breathing in love and exhaling calm. Breathing in peace and exhaling our love through our day.  Clearing the perceptions of our mind as the mirrors of our soul see God and God’s eyes stare back at us.  We are miracles of Glory and Grace inter-twined.

Our experiences are painted upon the watercolours of our body light.  Our soul shares our unique experiences through our shining aura energy.  I continue to share my mother’s smiles and wellness ways to my three children, as they have grown up now as young adults.

Tara Engeran-Schroeder